-24.09.06- [236]

time flies

2007-07-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

wah.. have been such a long time since i update the blog.. had been rather busy..
just last sat.. i get pian to go to the church... argh! but well, the people there are quite nice.. but i just dun like going to the church.. after the church event.. we went to watch simpsons.. altho the movie is lame.. but still quite funny la.. haha.

time flies.. i've been in the air force for 8 months liao.. and the good thing is.. i just get Promoted to the rank of 3SG!! wooot!! so happy ^_^ i've met many different types of ppl in the air force, and most of them are great to hang with, work and play with.. i'm consider quite fortunate ^^

today went to cck for my type course.. oh man.. so many courses to attend.. headache!! this is a 1 week course.. then next friday got to take the test.. stress!! National day is coming.. but guess what? it's not a holiday for us!! we need to be at our air bases to be the standby force in case of any activation.. sian.. i won't get to see the NDP.. =( It's no easy defending our country uh..

got alot of great movies coming up in this couple of weeks, flash point, disturbia, rush hour 3 and secret.. i wanan catch them all!

is it good to look young?

2007-05-15T18:02:00.001+08:00

today when i took lift to the first floor... i saw 3 boys in it.. the first qns the boy ask me is:"wow! u have a cool gun." i say:"it's not a gun, it's a belt." then the 2nd qns the boy ask me is:"you sec what?" omfg!!! even primary school kid thought i am from secondary school!! what the heck.. do i really look so young?! i told him i am in poly.. =.=""

one night in MOS

2007-05-11T13:17:00.000+08:00

woo hoo! long time never go clubbing liao.. yesterday whosgoing got event and i manage to get free tickets to enter MOS..
saw so many malays at MOS.. dunno why nowadays got so many malays like to go clubbing also.. it's not that i'm racist.. malays just simply irritates me.. the way they talk is always so irritating.. spoil my mood yesterday.. zzzz.. about half of MOS is crowded with malays sia.. yawns tired..

)=

2007-04-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

no mood already.. cannot go overseas for holidays.. so sad.. so many stupid rules, regulations and restrictions.. zzz..

suddenly find life meaningless..i've been lonely for so long..trapped in the past i just cant seems to move on..

something seems to be lacking in my life..all along i've been searching for it..wat could it be? money? car? credit card? women?

2006-12-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

finally.. i think i have manage to forget you and i'm moving on now..

2006-12-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

have u ever love and hate someone at the same time? as for me.. this is the 2nd time i am feeling like this! i hated u for treating me like this!why! why did i do wrong! yet i still love you at the same time! this feeling is making me miserable!! argh!!!

2006-12-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

damn heart pain.. today spend $150! $10 on top up ez link.. $46 buy 2 shirts.. $69.90 for a pair of jeans! and $24.90 on a snowcap! argh!!damn broke!! dunno why recently keep spending money! i know the fact i am broke.. but i can't control myself.. i think lost love is the reason why i can't control myself from spending money.. just like people who eat alot when they are depress.. mine is spending too much money..argh!!
in order to forget.. i need to make myself busy.. in order to move on.. i need to make myself busy so that i won't think about her..
but as the saying goes.. words are easy to say but actions are difficult to do..
haiz.. how? what should i do?
do i really need a lifetime to forget someone?

2006-12-10T14:54:00.000+08:00

woo hoo! yesterday went to MOS, free entry if u got a postcard, yesterday so many people sia! luckily i manage to cut Q and get to the front. finally after waiting for about 45mins i get to go in, it was so crowded sia.. lots of hot girls around.. the music yesteday was great, and i get to dance with a particular hot girl, i think she is a eurasian, friends say i dance like a pro with her, he even wanted to take video of us.. but in the end i never manage to get her number, aww!! what a pity.. after she left, i lost interest in other girls, why? because they can't dance as well as her.. i started to like clubbing, dance dance dance! i wanna club more often from now on!

WHY!

2006-12-09T11:51:00.000+08:00

argh!! why!! am i really such a loser? am i really so pathetic until nobody want? i just wan a simple love, a simple girl..

why are u treating me like this.. why did u block and delete me from msn? why u refuse to reply my sms? why did i do wrong?! why am i always the one SUFFERING!

2006-12-09T10:46:00.000+08:00

wtf!! after yesterday check up, my eyes are still blur!! it says the effect only last for a few hours, why now still blur!! i can see far but can't see near.. what the fuck!!

2006-12-08T12:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. just came back from Lasik consultation.. and it costs $152.25!!!! omd so ex.. the doctor say i am suitable for the surgery, on the 18 and 19 dec he will perform the surgery on both of my eyes.. each eye costs $1320, omd, i'm gonna broke man.. hopefully everything turns out smoothly..

2006-12-07T18:30:00.000+08:00

today air force called me and tell me to sign the contract next week.. hmm.. tml morning going to singapore national eye centre to check whether my eyes are suitable to Lasik surgery.. hope everything goes smooth.. hmmmm..

2006-12-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

POP lo!! finally i have graduated from tekong after 9 weeks of Basic Military Training.. yesterday night was our last night.. we went to the 4th floor, chase after a indian guy, grab him, pour pricky heat powder, tooth paste and detergent on him.. he was damn angry.. lol.. after that.. we proceed to our next target, Ruth, dunno why many people dislike him.. so they decide to play him.. we run into his room and pour powder all over him.. lol.. after that we went to the toilet, 2 men grab one chinese guy, pour powder, detergent over him and pull down his underwear! lol we did the same thing to other few people..
after that, everybody decided to target me! i run! but there are too many of them, they carry me to the toilet, try yo pull down my underwear, but luckily i could grab hold of it tight.. but they manage to put pricky heat powder and toothpaste inside.. =(
damn! so fking high... awwww!!!

holidays lo! got 1week plus of holidays!

Seems like i'm fated to die in girls' hands..

2006-11-26T08:29:00.000+08:00

gonna be 21 soon... but why dun i feel happy at all?
no words can describe how miserable i feel..
i'm such a failure compair to everyone..
i'm such a loser compair to everyone..
maybe i should disappear..
i shouldn't have exist in this world in the first place..
even nerds have such a sweet and beautiful gf...
i just want a simple love...
why can't i have it?
why do everyone have the things they want..
and i don't have the things everyone have..
so fucking unfair..
life sucks!

2006-11-26T08:25:00.000+08:00

i ask my girl..
to take a walk..
to take a walk..
down orchard road..
where we have lunch..
at Macdonalds..
we have fillet..
and an apple pie..
we share a cup..
of lemon lime..
looking into her eyes..
holding her hands..
i ask her to..
to be my valentine..
but she turn me down..
when i book in..
i feel love sick..
i feel so sick..
i pick up the phone..
i call her house..
her mama say..
she dunwan to talk to me..
i feel so sad..
i want to cry..
i want to die..
life so miserable..
what should i do?

Miserable

2006-11-19T12:55:00.000+08:00

do you know i'm feeling very miserable? do you know i have been so heart broken? do you know i've been hurt so deep? can u hear the breaking sound of my heart? can u see the bleeding from my heart? i'm facing alot of problems.. i have so much stress.. and i cant handle them.. i can't take it anymore.. i'm gonna break down!! my head is exploding!! i want to bang my head againist the wall! i really cannot take it anymore.. nobody cares.. nobody knows.. i have nobody.. i'm on my own..

do feelings really faded so easily? looking everywhere around me.. people having fun.. while i'm feeling miserable.. people celebrating birthday.. while i try to forget mine..

who will understand what i am going thru now? who will understand what i am feeling now?
i need someone by my side.. before i lost total control of myself..

Break Down

2006-11-19T10:40:00.000+08:00

stress.. this is the first time i'm encountering so much stress.. stress in army life.. 3 more weeks before i POP.. and this 3 weeks are the most stressing week.. life range.. shooting life bullets.. if misfired during life range.. will get charge and go Detention Barracks for 7 years.. training foot and arms drill for our Pass Out Parade.. i'm not good in drills and i sucks in it! always been punished for every small little things.. i'm so afraid i'll do any wrong things and get charged.. i'm so stress!

should i sign on for Navy or Air Force? STRESS!! i'm afraid if i make a wrong choice.. it's gonna affect my future greatly.. if i sign on for Air Force.. have to study everyday because every week there's a test.. i know there's good future working in the Air Force.. but there's lots of stress.. one mistake and there goes my future..

i'm facing so much stress.. lack of sleep.. lack of rest.. i can't take it anymore.. i'm gonna break down soon.. i'm gonna collapse.. how i wish there's someone there for me.. i'm afraid i can't hold on anymore.. hurt so deep.. heart so aches.. want u here.. need you back.. i really need someone.. life is so boring.. i really dunno why am i struggling so hard just to live.. life is so meaningless.. i find no meaning in life..

Birthday coming soon.. but why i don't feel happy at all.. nobody knows.. nobody cares.. what am i feeling right now..

2006-11-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to jeremy's 21 birthday.. everyone around is happily celebrating their birthday.. so envy.. guess mine will be nothing special as usual..
'haha'

2006-11-12T13:58:00.000+08:00

fuckup.. why am i so fucking useless compaired to everybody out there! i can't take it! everytime after i book out.. i dun wanna book in again.. many times.. i thought of running away.. i dun wanna lead a army life.. i can't take it.. i'm breaking down.. i'm so fucking useless.. emptyness is all i feel.. i have nothing left..
i'm a loser.. a failure.. a utter failure.. a total failure..

2006-11-12T09:38:00.000+08:00

it's time to say good bye..
i should leave..

2006-11-12T09:25:00.000+08:00

stress stress stress!! i have a fuck up life!! it sucks!! argh..i cannot take it.. i cannot control myself.. miserable.. depressed.. sad.. pathetic.. crazy.. insane.. nuts.. meaningless.. pointless..
i feel so empty.. i've nobody.. i'm on my own.. i've lost everything..
no one can help me.. just leave me alone to rot..
DYING~

2006-11-12T08:21:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep..not enough rest..i feel so tired..i feel so empty..broken..dying.. i cant take it anymore.. i'm breaking down.. i'm on my own.. nobody care.. nobody knows..

2006-11-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

7days in the field

have you ever sleep in the jungle before? have you ever sleep on the mud and grass before? have you ever don't bath for 6 days? i've been sleeping on the mud and on the grass for 6 nights.. i didn't bath for 6 days.. and it was miserable.. somemore it is a raining season.. i have to sit on the mud and grass even if it rains, i wear dirty uniforms for 2 days.. sleeping without pillow.. been hugging my wife(rifle) to sleep everynight, so that it won't get stolen, i'm so afraid that i will make any mistakes.. or else i will get confine for the weekends without coming back home..

people who have gone through the 7 days of field camp are real Man!

2006-10-29T09:28:00.000+08:00

is freedom more important or money? should i sign on for Navy? i need lots of money.. i need money to laser my eyes to perfect my eyesight.. i need money to get a license and buy a bike..

i'm afraid i will breakdown soon.. army life is tough..sometimes i really cannot take it.. everyday train so hard.. i dun have enough rest and sleep.. i wanna go home.. i wanna go out and see the people i want to see.. next week gonna have field camp.. a 7day camp in the jungle.. i can't go home for the next 2 weeks.. i'm really afraid i will break down one day.. if that day comes, please take care of yourself.. cos i might not be there for you..

2006-10-23T12:22:00.000+08:00

so bored.. so bored at home.. nothing to do.. dunno what to do.. everyday at home wait for her to come online.. so that i can chat with her.. i dun dare to go out.. as i am afraid i will miss the chance to talk to her..

i also dunno why will i turn out this way.. why will i become such a emotional, sentimental and a devoted guy.. i know i am stupid.. but i choose it this way..

2006-10-23T10:59:00.000+08:00

no matter what happens in future..
remember that.. i'll always be there for you.. to take what's left of you..
my feelings for you will never change..
even till the day i die..

me, the knight of Princess Summer,
swear to take care and protect her no mattter what happen..
even at the cost of my life!

2006-10-22T11:10:00.000+08:00

haiz.. sometimes in order for her happiness.. i have to force myself to forget her..i have to force myself not to be selfish.. i shouldn't ruin her happiness.. i won't be able to find a 2nd girl on earth who is as wonderful as her.. reality is really harsh.. it's so hard to accept the fact..

life in army is miserable.. dun really have any close frens.. life inside so stress.. lonely and tired.. everyday keep training.. even if i finish my 2 years of NS.. i dun even know what job to find.. i dun wanna study uni.. tired of studying.. haiz.. what should i do.. my life is in a mess..

2006-10-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

nowadays girls are so hard to understand.. they could change in a night! today can say they love you.. tml can say they want to break..
girls out there always say how unfaithful guys are.. but they are the one who are most unfaithful..
in order to forget the one i love.. i have to force myself to hate her..

nowadays NS men like me are like ailen .. everyone see us run far far away as if they saw a ghost..

2weeks never see girls.. 2 weeks never watch TV.. come back to Singapore is like going to Heaven..

2006-10-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

i guess now you hated me instead of loving me..
do you know how sad i feel?
i love you so much..

2006-10-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

i hope she can love me as before.. but i guess.. my wishes will never come true..
i can't forget you.. unless i get brain washed.. or else is i die..

2006-10-06T20:05:00.000+08:00

everything i did are bull shits.. i sacrifice so much for you.. all are bull shits..
i worked part time so that i can see you often.. i could have worked full time to earn more money but i choose to see you often..
i go all the way to your school just to meet you..
i meet you for only 30mins just to send you home..
i lend you money when you need it..
i accepted you for who you are.. and not all man are able to do this..
i rejected other girls because i love you.. and some of them are pretty.. because i dun go for looks.. all along i thot only pretty girls are unfaithful.. in the end.. no girls are faithful..
i did so much so much.. i sacrifice so much for you.. and this is what you do to me..
you like other guys..

don't leave the one who love you for the one you like..
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love..

you always got so many demands..
always say i wear beng..
always wanted me to become a christian..
keep telling me to study uni..
and i never even demand you anything..
and u once say this which hurts me alot..
"i won't marry you.. because you are not a christian."
i even consider to become a christian for your sake.. because i love you so much..

you are the 1st girl together with me the longest..
you are also the 2nd girl i cry for.. and the first who make me cry so much like a girl..
how many times have u asked for breakup? everytime i'm the one begging you not to break..
i lost man's pride and dignity because of you.. don't you know how much i love you?
why in the end you left me when i needed you the most..
why did u left me for a guy who only likes you..

2006-10-06T12:29:00.000+08:00

today is the last day left le..
life has been meaningless..
hope that i'll be the next victim..
to die in the army..
good bye everyone!

2006-10-05T19:17:00.000+08:00

the day u left me.. is the day i lost the goal of my life..
the day i lost the goal of my life.. is the day my life become meaningless..
tell me how to continue living when my life become meaningless..

im willing to sacrifice everything for u..
i even reject other girls..
but in the end.. u still choose to leave me when i needed you most..

u are the only person in my life..u are just like a plant which is rooted in my heart..
once the root is removed from my heart.. i withered..

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side,
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashing,
Cant belive I had a girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life,
what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right,
i Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Never thought that i'd be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long..
The feeling so deep.. tell me how to give up.. but you say.. i only want to be your friend..

Baby why won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me

2006-10-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

move on..
many words are easy to say... but things are hard to do...
to say move on is easy.. but to move on in reality.. is hard..

We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be withsomeone else.
We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person.
This is what love means... sacrifice.

Often we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesnt mean that we've stopped loving them
or we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

deep inside my heart.. i'm miserable.. knowing that i've lost u..
on the outside, i'm pretending that i've forgotten u..

How can I ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?"

They say no matter how dark the night is, the sun always rises again ...
I say lost love makes one realize that no matter how bright the day is,
the sun will always set again.

A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding..
Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling..
And the most painful thing is,
no one really hears it, except you.

Who do you run to when the only person who can make you stop crying,
is exactly the one who is making you cry..

2006-10-01T11:35:00.000+08:00

i dun wanna say goodbye to u..
i still can't accept the fact..
the moment u left me..i lost everything..
i blame no one but myself..
i blame myself for falling too deep..
being too devoted..
and being too emotional..

Normal friends

waiting..
i've been waiting..
to be your support..
i have no complains..
this is love..
i think that i am a failure..
from heaven fall to hell..
let's start from the beginning..
i can't accept the fact of being normal friends..
the feeling so deep..
tell me how to give up..
but you say..
i only want to be your friend..
but i can't..
i just can't be your friend..

death note

2006-09-30T12:48:00.000+08:00

another 7 days left..
hope i am the next victim..
to die in the army..

2006-09-27T09:46:00.000+08:00

mentally unstable.. losing total control of myself..
-24.09.06- [236]

2006-09-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

my heart has died..really really died..i no longer have the courage to love again..this empty heart of mine..seems so lonely..

Baby why won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me

2006-09-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Came upon this from the net,

Have you been in a relationship? your partner is with you but not with you?
she is with you physically but her heart is still pondering the chance of another relationship with another guy....waiting for him to express his feelings to her.

she dun deny it. she loves you, but she is not sure you are the right one. she stil needs to search. you will be selfish, cos you dun want her to search. you are sure you are the one for her. but she is not.

you have her but you dun have her. you understand? you are still having her.

Will she be with you only if the other relationship turns out impossibble? will you feel rejected and rediculed? being used maybe?

sometimes you being to tell yourself you dun mind. you will take it even if she takes you as second best. at least you still have her. and because you love her so much. you dun care anymore. you dun even care if you have her but you dun have her.

you feel deep sense of lost and imbalance.

You have this feeling before?

2006-09-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

ear bleed deaf soon

i hate the word "right guy"!! how to define the right guy u going to marry? how u know the guy is the right one for you??
he is rich, handsome, tall, tanned, strong, 6 pac, understanding, caring, faithful, hot, cute, nice, kind, easygoing and many many more..
and there's so many this type of guys in this world.. are they the right guy you mean?
there's so many of them, so if they are the right guy for you.. shouldn't you marry all of them!!

i hate god! some things u do are for the sake for god!! what's so great about him? he never give us food, money, clothings, nor house!! can he chat with you? as in answer all your questions? He has been talking about loving you.. bull shit.. as if you really can feel his love.. what did he do for you? die for everyone of us? so what.. we are still sinned.. he die or not.. we are also sinned.. what's the difference? and he always prayed for us.. as if his prayer works.. if his prayer works.. the world would be so much peaceful.. God doesn't exist! he's fooling you! brainstorming you!
he force people to be christians, when the people doesn't, he curse and make their life miserable.. just like me!!
i have been scolding and cursing you all along god, hoping one day you will strike lightning on me.. but you didn't.. what's so great about you?
god, if you are able to read this, i DARE you! take my life!!

Men are born to be good, but i am borned to be evil.. Men nature are good, my nature is evil.. there's too much hatred in me.. too much evil in me.. i can't seem to control myself..

Suddenly.. the food i like become tasteless.. everything around me has no color.. the things i like no longer interests me anymore..

last time couple choose to be together even till the last breath..now, couple breakup juz to catch a breath

Baby why won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes..
I don't wanna say goodbye..
to you..

2006-09-25T10:41:00.000+08:00

recently has been down on my luck.. handphone spoil.. computer chair spoil.. sad love story.. what's more? nothing seems to turn out smooth.. i heard that when someone luck has been very bad.. they will have a high chance of seeing ghosts.. maybe that will happen to me soon..

2006-09-24T16:11:00.000+08:00

i am sorry.. i didn't mean to treat you cold.. just that i dunno how to react.. i dunwan to affect your studies.. at the same time.. i couldn't bear to leave you.. i dunno what to do..

2006-09-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

what's meant to be mine will be mine.. what's not meant to be mine will not be mine..
i used to believe what's not meant to be mine can be made mine.. but i was wrong.. we can't win fate.. we can't win god..

Love means never having to say you're sorry..

last time couple choose to be together even till the last breath..now, couple breakup juz to catch a breath

i know i'll have to let u go one day.. love means never have to say u're sorry.. love shouldn't be selfish..

2006-09-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

G-String Shows Off

laugh out loud!

2006-09-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

Basshunter - Vi sitter här i Ventrilo och spelar lite Dota

WarCraft Dota Techno.. haha

2006-09-10T18:33:00.000+08:00

KITTEN

cute cute kitty

2006-09-07T00:31:00.000+08:00

American Shorthair Cat Family

cute cute pussy cats!!

2006-09-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

Durex espermatozoides

How condom works.. haha.. =x

2006-09-06T12:17:00.000+08:00

Baby Looking for Something

what a naughty baby!!

2006-09-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

today after work straight away i went to orchard.. to service my hp.. in order to repair my phone.. i need to pay $94 to change the Lcd screen even tho i got Warranty!! What the bird man.. got warrenty also need to pay.. might as well dun give warranty right! in the end i decide not to get it repair.. no point la.. after that i trade in my spoilt phone for the 2nd handed 6100.. a bit regreted sia.. that phone quite lousy.. haiz.. anyway.. i'm just so suay.. =(

2006-09-05T10:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday so suay.. my phone spoil.. =( the screen spoil le.. lucky my mum lend me her phone temporily.. lucky my phone still got warranty.. today after work going to the service center to repair the phone.. then.. i just realise.. my left ear can't hear properly.. den sometimes still got some sounds.. like "ring ring sound" how ar? =(

2006-09-03T21:02:00.000+08:00

Kitten and his box.

meow meow mao~

2006-09-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

argh!!! wtf is going on with me!! somebody stop me!! mentally unstable!! *bangs my head against the wall*

2006-09-02T14:46:00.000+08:00

Mr. Lonely

akon- mr lonely..

2006-09-02T14:13:00.000+08:00

What a lonely Saturday..
perhaps there's no eternal love in this world.. there's no true love in this world.. there's no forever love in this world..
suddenly feel so lonely..
suddenly have the feeling that i have lost everything..

2006-09-01T00:11:00.000+08:00

teriyaki boyz - tokyo drift

wooo.. altho the girls are hot.. but i like the song more.. =x

2006-08-30T12:21:00.000+08:00

Times has changed..
last time, couple choose to be together even till the last breath
but now, couple breakup just to catch a breath..

how can a human live by alone all their life?
are you talking about yourself or myself?
perhaps myself.. maybe human can really live by alone all their life..
Times has changed..

2006-08-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

Terminator & Jesus

i hope no one will find this offensive

2006-08-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

Super Cop

hahaha.. so funny.. =x

2006-08-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

Panda sneeze shocker

Panda sneeze

2006-08-26T14:47:00.000+08:00

Gunther-ding ding dong

u touch my tra-la-la..

2006-08-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

Ken - 大舌頭 da she tou

2006-08-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

Get this video and more at MySpace.com

2006-08-22T10:53:00.000+08:00

Camara escondida

Must see...one of the best pranks ever.

2006-08-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

black and white

2006-08-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

stupid national day eve! so many customer! machiam like hungry ghost.. eat eat eat.. 10pm liao still come and eat.. never eat will die ar! you all dunwan to go home.. we want to go home man! work until 11pm den finish work.. stupid customers..

2006-08-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

=( dunno why all my relationship is in the mess.. why all my relationship can't last? even the longest is about 6 months only.. why all my poly friends relationship last so long.. most of them have at least 1year+ relationships.. and is still counting.. i even got 1 friend that have a 5years relationship and is still counting.. haiz.. why when come to me.. i'm such a failure.. a utter failure.. a total failure.. )=

2 years in army.. 2 years botak.. 2 years no girl like. .even if got gf.. most likely gf will run away..)=

2006-08-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

i miss you badly.. sorry.. i can't stop thinking.. i feel so lonely without you.. )=

2006-08-01T12:02:00.000+08:00

i thought love has no right or wrong.. does love means u have to find the right person? how do u know if the person is the right one? what if it is the wrong one? i always thought love is simple.. as long as u love the person.. it is enough.. there's no right or wrong love.. isn't simple love is better? why will people make love so complicated.. does that mean the right person is always the better one than the previous one? wad i mean is.. today u got a handsome, rich and caring guy for you.. 1 month later.. u found a more handsome.. more rich.. more caring guy than the current one? so u think he is the right one.. so u leave him and go for a better one.. then after 3 months later.. u found another one.. a much more handsome.. much more richer.. much more caring guy.. then u think he is the right guy for u.. u leave your current one and be with the new one u found.. and this will continue once again if you found another better one.. is this what people means? the right guy? and you'll forever be searching for the right one..

i always thought as long as i love her.. other things dun matter.. even tho she is not the perfect one.. it's ok.. no one can be perfect.. isn't that so? no love can be perfect too.. correct?
true love is not about accepting the good and bad points of the person.. is to Love the good and bad points of the person.. even if the person do any wrong things.. i'll never leave her.. i'll stay by her side to guide her..

or i am wrong? love is simple? or actually love is not simple? any love guru here to guide me? true love?

2006-07-31T22:39:00.000+08:00

i really can't accept other girls rite now.. no one can ever replace u in my heart.. no one..
you are the sweetest girl i ever met.. the nicest girl i ever know.. i don't think i'll meet the 2nd girl who is as sweet and as nice as you..

just now.. i went to read all the letters u write to me.. each and every words seems so true.. they are so sweet.. no one has ever written me so many letters.. even if it is a short one.. i am already so happy.. even if the 6month ex i had.. she only write me a birthday card for me.. i'm really so afraid to lose you.. i need you to stay.. sorry.. =( i just can't control myself.. i'm not forcing u.. i'll just wait.. i know waiting is a very miserable thing to do.. but i have no regret..

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."

2006-07-31T19:59:00.000+08:00

in the movie the lake house.. both the girl and the guy waited from year 2004 and met at year 2008.. they both waited each other patiently for 4 years..

maybe this one of the tests i'll have to go through.. i'll wait.. maybe it might take me 1 year.. 2 years.. 10 years.. or even till i die.. i'll wait.. wait till i am your right guy.. wait for u to be mature enough to understand what love is.. i'll give u time.. and u are the first and only girl that i am willing to wait over my past relationships..

believe what i say.. nothing to hide.. hoping you'll see.. how much i love u.. hoping you'll see.. what your love means to me..

2006-07-31T13:22:00.000+08:00

is status between each other more important? or the feelings for each other is more important?

2006-07-31T12:02:00.000+08:00

i really can't accept other girls right now.. even if they are 100times nicer than u.. 100 times better than u.. i only want you! u hear that? T_T

2006-07-31T10:29:00.000+08:00

tell me how to forget u.. how to forget.. all the memories are in my head.. i only think of u and nothing else..
T_T

yesterday night can't sleep well again.. i'm sorry i drop tears again.. i'm such a weakling.. why am i behaving like a girl.. i dunwan to marry a viet girl when i am 40.. but.. will there be anyone who will love me? )=

love is blind.. i am blind.. love can't be explained.. i can't explain love.. love has no reason.. i have no reason to love.. love is stupid.. love is dumb.. i am stupid.. i am dumb..

my heart has died.. really really died.. i no longer have the courage to love again..

yes.. love do hurts.. but once u lost love.. u'll become a monster.. just like me!!

getting into a relationship is as easy as eating chicken drumsticks.. maintaining a relationships is as if dreaming to be the president.. yet.. in order to forget you.. unless i lost my Memories..

tell me how to forget u.. how to forget.. all the memories are in my head.. i only think of u and nothing else..
T_T

2006-07-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

it's harder to smile than to make sad faces..even if i am sad..Hide it! don't let anyone see it..just smile even if crying inside..
but.. i can no longer hide.. now i am behaving like a girl.. sad like a girl.. crys like a girl.. what's wrong with me!!

i can't make someone love me..
all i can do is to be someone who can be loved..
and the rest is up to the person to realise my worth..
)=

2006-07-30T20:46:00.000+08:00

this is my number 14 gf.. yet until now.. i have only cried for 2 girls.. the first one is my 2nd ex gf.. and now i'm dropping tears for my this recent one.. i don't cry easily.. yet why i can't control my tears.. i'm sorry i cried.. i'm a sissy..

2006-07-30T18:17:00.000+08:00

break up le..i din noe will end up like this.. it seems like a dreams.. is there really no true love that exist?
living without u..living alone.. this empty heart of mine.. seems so lonely..
my heart has died.. Suddenly.. nothing interests me anymore.. the food i like become tasteless.. everything around me has no color.. the things i like no longer interests me anymore..

tell me what to do.. tell me how to forget.. should i wait? or should i move on? someone tell me?
)=
31.01.2006 - 30.07.2006 a total of 181 days.. has ended.. )=
there won't be anyone who will like me anymore.. won't.. =(
maybe i'll need to marry a viet girl when i am 40..

lying beside u..
here in the dark..
feeling your heartbeat with mine..
softly u whisper..
u sounds so true..
how could love be so blind..
why should i love u so much..
we sailed on together..
we drifted apart..
so now i come to you..
with open arms..
nothing to hide..
believe what i say..
so here i am..
with open arms..
hoping u'll see..
what your love means to me..
living without you..
living alone..
this empty heart seems so lonely..
wanting to holding u..
wanting u near..
how much i wanted u here..
i need you to stay..
so now i come to you..
with open arms..
nothing to hide..
believe what i say..
so here i am..
with open arms..
hoping u'll see..
how much i love you..

2006-07-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes Love Hurts
But If It Doesn't Hurt
Then Itsn't Love Anymore
Hold On To The Person U Love
Before They Slip Away
Or Else U Can Never Get Them Back

Love is blind, i am blind..
even if u stab my heart, i won't blame u..
coz.. love is blind..

2006-07-29T12:53:00.000+08:00

.. haiz.. i feel like crying.. i'm always a strong man.. normally i dun cry often.. but this is the 2nd girl i cried for.. don't laugh at me.. men who cried are actually being despised.. man who cry sounds sissy..
because i'm too serious in this relationship le.. i wonder does she knows? the love i have for her is true? just that i'm not good at expressing myself.. coz i always do it in the wrong way.. thus we always quarrel.. =(

2006-07-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

everytime i am serious in my relationships.. things always dun go well smoothly.. quarrels quarrels everytime.. i have quite a number of relationships before.. none has turn out well.. none last.. the longest one was about 5months+ near 6.. i guess my current relationship now is gonna break soon.. coz i always make her mad.. make her angry.. make her quarrel.. i'm not good with words.. maybe that is why i dunno how to express myself.. coz i always do it in a wrong way.. this girl is the only one i ever love so much.. the only relationship that i am most serious in.. the only girl i wanna marry and i am working hard saving money for the future.. but..

i'm afterall a demon, a beast, an ugly monster.. i'm born with the hand of the demon.. all along i think i'm the demon.. i'm always mean to strangers.. to people i don't like.. this is why.. i dun have much friends.. and i have made many enemies..
such a evil person like me don't deserve to be loved by anyone.. i'm fated to be lonely forever.. i've no looks, i've no talant, i've no money, i've no wisdom, i've no car, i've no height.. i've no frens, i've no family.. i'm evil, i'm mean, i'm bad, i'm cruel, i'm despicable.. i'm hated by all! nobody likes me!

if u happen to read this.. dun be angry.. i'm not saying that i want to break.. don't get the wrong idea.. maybe i am too sensitive? maybe i think too much? i do want to marry u.. coz i really love u..

2006-07-29T12:19:00.000+08:00

When You Love Someone

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved him for so very long,
You would think he could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That he would always stay this way.
He treated you like you should be treated.
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true
And then one day it was all so blue.
He started putting you down and it hurt.
You thought all you were to him was dirt.

He started ignoring you and you wondered why.
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night he was so sweet to you.
You thought all those things were maybe true.
Two days later he was back the same.
You thought you were the one to blame.

He thought the relationship was getting too serious
and that you had become a little to curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last.
All the nice things he said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry him some day,
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this wouldn't happen any more.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock.
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

2006-07-28T09:55:00.000+08:00

duuno why this few days so tired.. i think i work too much le..has been so busy..and yesterday night can't sleep..

2006-07-22T14:36:00.000+08:00

A person will meet how many people in their life ? What I mean is ur life partner...Sometimes a couple must use a very long time to understand each other ,its just like building a bridge , takes a very hard and long time . While building it , we need to trust each other....

Even finding a trusty , a long times can knowing a person...so please cheerish them with NO REGRET !!!!

2006-07-22T14:23:00.000+08:00

i can't make someone love me..
all i can do is to be someone who can be loved..
and the rest is up to the person to realise my worth..
my love is here for you..
it is up to you to realise my worth..

2006-07-19T12:12:00.000+08:00

another 2 months plus and i'm going army le.. and that day will be 7th Oct 2006.. )=

2006-07-18T19:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes Love Do Hurts,
But If It Doesn't Hurt,
Then It isn't Love Anymore,
Hold On To The Person U Love,
Before He Slip Away,
Or Else U Can Never Get Him Back..

2006-07-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

woo thank you la jiao for your pressie from KL.. tq 10q.. =x
thank u for the nice cap and cool watch! really nice (=

2006-07-17T09:23:00.000+08:00

whenever girls have Pms... we guys, are always the ones who suffers the most.. we always get #%@#^&*$ for no reason..

2006-07-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time
There was a Boy and a Girl, they were neighbours, and good frenx.
Girl was a little older than Boy, so most of the time, Girl would take care of Boy.
As days passed, Girl found that she has fallen in love with Boy, but he does not know.
One day, they went to a nearby hill to have fun, suddenly, a snake came out from no where.
It bit Boy on his thigh.
Without even thinking, Girl sucked out the poison from his thigh and brought him to the nearby village to seek medical aid.
The doctors did all they could to cure Boy, and he pulled through.
Girl went to visit Boy, she saw him sleepin peacefully,so she stood beside him,looking at him.
Boy slowly opened his eyes.
Girl reached out her hand to touch his face.
Boy could not see her.
Girl had collapsed at his bedside.
Due to drinkin down the poisonous blood which she sucked from Boy, Girl died...
Day by day, Boy recovered and had a beautiful life.
Grew up, get married, had children, then died of old age.
BUT
he didnt knw of Girl's love even the day that he died..

Maybe u are the Girl in this story, who is doing everything for that someone or the Boy , who doesn't know someone is there by his side everytime.
If u love someone, say it.
Even if u don't get the ending u wanted but at least u have tried and wont regret.
Love is magnimous , neverending and forever.
Once u have made an effort, u cant regret it, cant give it up, cant give up the person who loves u.
even more cant give up the person whom u love..
u dont get a 2nd chance for everything in life..once u miss it, theres no turning back.

One must learn to cherish the people around u.

This way u wont have any regrets.

2006-07-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

You are 22% nerd!
For this test, the average nerd percentage is 28.66%.
67552 people have taken this test to date.

Fun Facts

42729 people wear boxers.

8859 people can calculate pi to more than 6 decimal places.

13531 people say they don't know what a C.E.O. is.

14731 people know French.

6313 people have read "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy."

4215 people spend alot of time on the Student Center Network.

2006-07-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

The Personality Test

You scored a 51.35%.
For this test, the average percentage is 52.279983200564%.
55359 people have taken this test to date.

This score classifies you as:

You have an open mind, yet are firm in your beliefs. You are trusting of people and have a fairly easy time making new friends. You live a happy life and will continue to do so if you stay the way you are.

2006-07-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

The Excess Anxiety Test

You scored a 21.43%.
For this test, the average percentage is 35.828925453324%.
13401 people have taken this test to date.

2006-07-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

The Social Misfit Test

You scored a 24%.
For this test, the average percentage is 22.40006987815%.
22897 people have taken this test to date.

This score classifies you as:

You are a borderline social misfit. Try to curb some of your stranger tendencies and you'll get along just fine.

2006-07-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

Pre-Sex Purity Test

You scored a 66.67%.
For this test, the average percentage is 59.670425454324%.
16453 people have taken this test to date.

This score classifies you as:

The higher the score, the more unpure you are. If you scored lower than a 50, you're very very pure.

2006-07-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

You are 44.44% jealous!
For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.
528110 people have taken this test to date.

This percentage means that :
•You are not a jealous person, but sometimes can be.
•Occasionally, you over-react to situations.
•Most of the time, you trust the people around.
•Jealously will not be a major issue in relationships, but you might want to improve your self-esteem.

2006-06-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen

Peacemaker, first to end a fight

Good at thinking up creative dates

Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily

Going with your gut instead of your head

Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault

Good at recognizing patterns in relationships

Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count

Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love

Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow

Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind

Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

2006-06-19T10:48:00.000+08:00

wooo.. my uncle came back from vietnam le... and he bought a Dvd player from vietnam.. it costs $90 sgd.. and my uncle bought afew dvds too.. got da vinci code..firewall.. transportator 2.. unltra violent.. and V for ve***** i dunno the spelling.. =x den my uncle at first dunno how to connect the wires for the dvd player.. then ask me help him connect.. i try try for almost 1 hour.. then finally can le! den we watch ultra violet.. ok la.. a bit nice only.. tml is my Graduation day le! the day when i get my diploma.. wee!

i still remember.. last time when i fall sick.. or injure myself.. the first thing my mum will do.. is to Scold me! she will say: tell you blah blah blah..den u still blah blah blah.. see la.. now sick.. or.. tell you blah blah blah.. den u still blah blah blah.. see la.. now injure liao.. now bleeding.. the first thing she do.. is to scold me.. not to care for me.. this is why.. i am use to keeping things to myself.. not telling anyboby.. so wad if i tell.. no 1 will be bother.. no one will care.. they will only scold me or get mad at me if i tell..

2006-06-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

Things that u might not know..

when u are sad.. i feel more sad.. coz i can't make u smile..
when u are unhappy..i feel more unhappy.. coz i can't make u happy..
when u cut yourself.. my heart aches.. coz i can't stop u from hurting yourself..
when u cry.. i feel like crying.. coz i can't stop u from crying..
when u get hurt.. i feel more hurt.. coz i not there to protect you..
when u are mad.. i feel depress.. coz i make u mad again and u won't cool down..

yes.. God is great.. but there's still many things that Men can do and yet God can't do..
when u cry.. my shoulder is always there for you to lie on..
when u feel cold.. my arms are always there to hug you..
whatever happens to you.. i'm always there for you..
when u do silly things.. i'm always there to stop you..
when u dun feel being loved.. my love is always there for you...

u are my oxygen.. without u..i die..
u are my heart.. without u..i die..
without u.. i lose the reason to live..
without u..i will never be happy..
without u..i will never smile..
without u.. i'm forever a walking corpse..
without u.. i die..

if one day u feel like crying..
call me..
i don't promise to make you laugh..
but i can cry with you..

if one day you're troubled..
call me..
i don't promise to solve your problems..
but i can share the them with u..

if one day u get bullied..
call me..
i don't promise to stop them from bullying
u..
but i can shield you from them..

if one day u get very mad..
call me..
i don't promise to calm you down..
but i can always let you bite..

if one day u feel lonely..
call me..
i don't promise to accompany u at that moment..
but i always will be there for you all the time..

if one day u want to run away from home..
call me..
i don't promise to stop you from running..
but i can run away with you..

if one day u are heartbroken..
call me..
i don't promise to mend your heart..
but i can try to heal it..

if one day u feel upset..
call me..
i promise to be very quiet..
and listen to what u say and be ur listening
ear..

but if one day u call..
and i never answer..
come quick to find me..
maybe it's me who needs you!

2006-06-17T10:42:00.000+08:00

hai... sian la.. my com gonna spoil soon liao.. keep on hang halfway when i use.. maybe my com old le.. it has been 3 years+ with me le since i go poly..
yesterday night went to watch movie.. R.V.. actually i wan towatch silent hill..but then my frens dunwan.. so no choice lor.. at first i thot the movie suxs! but after watching.. the movie actually quite nice.. is a comedy about a faimly going for a vocation..

2006-06-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

14 things girls should know about boys.. x=

*1. We're not as pervert as you think we all are.

*2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-
boyfriend IS a LOSER.

*3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses sometimes too.

*4. Don't argue with us when we call you beautiful. because we mean it..

*5. Don't treat us like crap, what goes around comes around.

*6. We know you're pretty, that's one of the reason's we're going out with you.

*7. If you really liked us for us, you would
let us think that our clothes and dressing looks cool. and not ah beng.. )=

*8. When we tell you that you're not fat, believe us.

*9. You expect us to say and do sweet
things for you, but it would be nice if you did the same every once in a while. We like to know that you
love us.

*10. We can't always be spontaneous, so try to
help us make the plans sometimes.

*11. Pamela Anderson's breasts aren't fake anymore, but we like yours better anyway.

*12. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots who don't want a relationship.

*13 Don't tell us how cute your Kor was.
That doesn't turn us on.

11 Things boys should know about girls..

*1. girls like guys to treat them like a princess. <== i treat u like a little princess.. >_<

*2. hug them all the time. <== i'll hug u tight..

*3. give them surprises. <== i'll always give u surpirses (=

*4. tell us we're not fat though we are.. <== u not fat!

*5. not talk about your ex g.f because that sux. <== erm.. ok

*6. ACCEPT their Kors.. <== erm..i'll try..

*7. and tell them yr jealous when u are.. <=== erm.. ok...

*8. tell them y yr angry and when yr angry..dont just dao me. <== ok..

*9. accept their appology <== i'll forgive u.. (=

*10. take advantage of them once in awhile <== Lol..sure! ^ ^

*11. and show us what love really is <== i love you baby.. marry me!!